Keep your coins. I want change.

"You're mind is working at its best when you're being paranoid. You explore every avenue and possibility of your situation at high speed with total clarity."

April 10th, 2011

40...40 is either a large or a considerably small number, depending on the way you view it or percieve. To me it's a little bit of both. To me it's a number that will make me free, a number that will end it all, a number that will start things anew. It is roughly 40 days until I graduate high school. 40 days until freedom. After graduation from high school evreything will be different...I will have entered the real world. College will be starting and then for sure it will be very different. That will be the start of true self dependence. As a friend of mine said, "it's beginning to get bittersweet". And I completely agree with her. Sweet in the sense that it will end all that is associated with high school, the drama, the routine, the work, the stress, etc. Bitter in the sense that I will not have all the friends that I've come to know and love close by, and really that about it for me. But still, overall I cannot wait until im out of that place that I can't stand, the place where I have to get out of bed and sit around for roughly 7-8 hours a day. But still, I will miss some aspects of it all.